I’ve been offline, though I didn’t intend to be absent for so long. I have to admit since COVID; it has been difficult to get into a routine of writing. I love writing, however, the stresses of work, building and moving into a new home, plus illnesses in my family has put a strain on my creative mojo. It’s not that I haven’t tried, but my life’s journey has taken me down another path. Where to from here?
It’s time for self-healing and listening to my body. I’ve been so busy juggling that I’ve neglected to take time for myself. Part of the problem is the emphasis I’ve put into my job to earn an income to pay the bills and essentials, channelling a small proportion of the income into my writing and wanting to be a successful author earning modest royalties. Suffice to say, the latter has been elusive. The positive is I have made wonderful connections with writers and readers from around the world.
I’m not giving up on my writing or the fact I have a new book ready for publication. I’ve decided to give myself a permission to hung up over not sitting at my desk every day and not berate myself if I don’t get time to write. I haven’t a strategy on getting back to writing and I had intended to sit and write 300 words each night. After a full day of teaching, my motivation to write is non-existent. I am open to suggestions if you have any.
I am concerned feel guilty about not posting or emailing regularly. I want to keep in touch with my subscribers and not let them down, keep in touch with fellow writers and try to develop collegial relationships to expand my reach for more readers. This could be detrimental to growing my readership and connections but I need to look after my wellbeing. I need to go back to why I started writing. I love to write. All the additional parts of being of writer, such social networking, is not what I anticipated or how much extra work it would be, which I guess, is an antithesis of wanting to be a successful writer. I’m not good at it and seem to hit the wrong chord each time I post. And that leads me to …
I dislike social networking and is it a tool writers need? It such a time suck and fosters selfishness. The more heavily reliant people become on their devices and social networking, the less I use them. What are the odds it is causing me more damage as a writer by not posting something every day, which I don’t have time to do. Love to hear your thoughts on this.
Sorry for the digressing, back to my original theme of this article, my self-healing journey. I’ve been listening to Mel Robbins, thanks to my sister who told me about her, and I bought her book, Let Them Theory. I haven’t read it yet but will let you know about it when I do. And I’ve taken undergoing a course by Dr Joe Dispenza and doing the meditations. I am enjoying the process and have a few insights. What I’ve learnt so far is anything is possible with making even a few changes. One is perception of self, and I’ll be honest here, I have low self-esteem and self-worth. This is a part of myself that I have just come to terms with and one that I will be addressing. Not sure what this will look like, as this requires rewiring and reframing old perceptions and habits.
Speaking of which, I am reading James Clear book on Atomic Habits. Small changes to create new habits. He has outlined actionable steps and not onerous, simple strategies that will take time to see the benefits from. They say it takes eights weeks for new habits to form. I am not sure how my writing will pan out this year in spite of the new study and set up, which is really cool and a good space to work. Maybe just being in the space for short periods of time may be the way to get back into writing. Let me know what you think!
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